I love generating. I definitely love it. Simple or complicated, generating something makes me happy. If I can’t find anything to generate, even generating some joke to make the person in front of me happy is enough for me. If there is a reason for my literature passion, it would be definitely this one. I don’t care being an author or a poet. I don’t claim anything about what I did. I just enjoy them. People think that I am philosophizing about things. I don’t give a crap to it. I only love making a contribution to the world of thought of this society. Thus, I try to pay my debts to my country. When just a little seed suffers so many things with the purpose of being beneficial to humanity and gives us its fruits, this makes me think the way that “I feel debted”. That’s why I feel responsible for all of the creatures in this world. Unless I generate something, I feel like I victimise that seed. I owe it for its effort, I know that. That’s why as I am not afraid of death so I am afraid of being incapable to generate. Death could come for me tomorrow, or maybe it can take me while I am writing these sentences. I am not afraid of death, but I am afraid of the things that I’ll leave behind. How did I live my life? Did I generate something in that period, or I just live it with some kind of inutile activities such as eating, drinking and sleeping? I don’t care what others think about me. Maybe they’ll swear at me after my death. That time I’ll ask my conscience. Did you leave something beneficial behind you for this world? If the answer is yes, I can freely forget the rest. As long as I generate, I feel peaceful. I feel peaceful while I am writing these sentences, and that’s enough for me. Besides, I don’t perceive the “generating” word as only inventing something or performing art. If you’re the reason of that smile which garnishes the face of that water seller kid, that means you generated happiness. Or if you break up a fight, that means you generated peace. Humans only exist if they generate something, and this feeling is the nature of all humans. The fact that being too interested about reproduction in order to keep the family name alive is related to this matter. To be brief, even reproducing is a level of generating. But because of the fact that some people live their life with awareness of this subject, they may use it for different purposes. For example, some uses it to fix their body, some uses it to fix their mind and some uses it to fix their character. However, all of them comes from only one energy. This being the case, numerous things are involved in generating.
October 26, 2015